Wednesday, July 24, 2002

Tuesday, July 23, 2002

dear mohan, i trust u r fine.u r back as commissioner disabled. after scy hr education must be a a cool job. mehra pune phone no are 5433966,5410891. regards to sheela and anuttama. bye .tried to talk to sujaya on phone at 21 00hrs last week unsuccessfully,

Saturday, July 13, 2002

hi sujaya &mohan, glad to note that u have decided to stick on to ur job in oregon. the logic is sound,stability&security r imp as one get older.we alys pray ur happy. mohan ar u fine now? did jayas shake up affect u? anutamma must be slogging 4 12 std ?deepa is now in 10 ,&shweta in 5 std , financial markets have been volatile this year, nothing more for the present.

Wednesday, July 10, 2002


The long silence was because my life was in a turmoil as I wrestled with a big decision. You will be surprised to hear that I have decided not to move to Iowa. Several factors played a role in this decision. First, and most important, as I started to get my house ready for sale, I found it more and more difficult to make preparations to move. I realized that giving up the house or the friends that I have made here was not the problem; the problem was what this represented - another move in such a short period. Wandering for 7 years since Naren died has taken its toll on me and stability is of great importance at the moment. Sunita and her family visited me recently and they watched my life here and how the community and I interacted, and they felt that I had a good life here that I should not disrupt.

Secondly, the big $ 1.23 million NSF grant needed another PI. NSF did not want the grant moved to IA and I was unable to find a collaborator with the level of motivation and enthusiasm that is needed to see it through. It is a huge grant, involving lots of people at different locations, and I feel responsible for accomplishing the goals of the project and I can only do that by staying!

Finally, the response of the community was surprising and overwhelming. The growers called the Deans to ask what OSU was doing to keep me. Then the emeriti wrote a letter to the President and he actually responded. This acted as a catalyst for faculty, and they had a meeting to discuss my frustrations. A fair amount of my problems have to do with our Interim Chair's lack of leadership, inflexibility and unreasonable attitude . As a result of all of this there have been more conversations, some changes have occurred and I succumbed to the pressure.

Telling the new employer that I am withdrawing my acceptance has been very difficult but he is a very understanding person and realizes that my decision is due to personal reasons and not professional ones. He prevented others at IA from calling me to try to make me change my mind and that has been a great help. Probably the most difficult part of all this is my having to change my perspective about myself - I thought I was someone that does not go back on a commitment and that is no longer true.

It has taken me a while to get to this point. I was physically sick at times just trying to figure out what was the best thing I needed to do. I have no doubt that professionally I would have benefited by going to Ames. But, as one grows older, different things gain greater importance. Academia is a known devil, USDA is not and I guess I am less of a risk taker now. Also, I have waited for an academic job for so long - it is too early to give it up.

Does any of this make sense? I am more relaxed and content now so at least for the time being, it appears that I need to stay.

That's my story. What has been happening at your end?


Tuesday, July 02, 2002

Hi folks, long time no see ,hear /? mohan what about anutamma results? did corp bank guys deliver on their promise/? sujaya i missed u 2 time .hope it is not a hattrick .hope u r well .i wish u good luck in ur new assignment.

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